Today was a day I wish never really happened. I went on a uh... A really big emotional ride from Pingy, but I made it to the end safely. Now uh... You may be asking, "Why make this Journal?"
Today was supposed to be the first day of a break a I took. Er... Wanted to take. Today, early this morning, I made a decision I regretted more than being an introvert. And being a introvert ruined my life, to be honest.
But that's personal stuff - so is what I'm about to say, but hey. Don't say anything.
Early this morning I was thinking about Pingy. And uh... Not in the best way. Early this morning I had given up on him. ForeverVictini
and I talked about it for awhile, but in the end I had given up. I felt as if my love for him needed to end since it only brought pain to me. What I didn't see is that having him by my side changed my life.
He brought the greatest joy to my life, something no one else will ever feel because of how great it is. He was the reason I smiled, I laughed, I lived. But I only say that he made me cry, frown, and live in the darkness behind a mask.
Today I shall take off that mask and live my life the way I should've from the moment I met the love of my life - Pingy. I'm going to smile on my own. I'm going to live a life I want to.
Something I'm never gonna forget is how he changed me greatly. Before I would deny anyone a chat unless I knew them, but now I act myself in crowds. I sometimes dance with others - don't care if I'm bad - when they do, I sing and talk with others now, and I actually do stuff now. He didn't just make me uh... change my views on people, he made me change my view on life. That is something only he can do.
Someday I will look back upon this day and ask myself why I gave up. For now I stand proud and strong, ready to tackle life knowing I have the greatest support anyone could ever give.
Pingy isn't just a person. He is a miracle inside a dream that came true and somehow popped into my life. But he did so for a reason, and that reason was to make me strong. He has done so.
He came into my life for a reason. That reason was to bring me down.
He came into my life for a reason. That reason was to make me smile brighter than all the stars combined times infinity.
He's my guardian angel, protecting me from death by letting me make my own decisions. (Also by being the greatest person in the multi-verse but still :V)
Something you should never give up on is the love of your life. A true love story never ends, so why make it? It's the greatest miracle ever created.
Thank you for that, Pingy. You're my miracle.